My husband read my book. He kept telling me he was going to read it, but I really didn't think he would, because he never reads fiction. He reads--he reads lots of books; just not fiction. However, I was wrong! He did read it, once we got a hard copy.
Now, my husband is familiar with Pride and Prejudice in a general way. He's watched at least parts of various movie versions, and I will sometimes talk to him about the characters and what I'm writing about. However, he is not so familiar as to remember exactly who everybody is, and a few chapters into UA, he was asking me a lot of questions about how different people were related. To help him, I made him the following set of family trees, and I thought I would post it here too.
It's Only a Novel!
The (hopefully) genius, wit and taste of Lara S. Ormiston
"Yes, novels; for I will not adopt that ungenerous and impolitic custom so common with novel–writers, of degrading by their contemptuous censure the very performances, to the number of which they are themselves adding.... There seems almost a general wish of decrying the capacity and undervaluing the labour of the novelist, and of slighting the performances which have only genius, wit, and taste to recommend them. “I am no novel–reader — I seldom look into novels — Do not imagine that I often read novels — It is really very well for a novel.” Such is the common cant. “And what are you reading, Miss — ?”
“Oh! It is only a novel!” replies the young lady, while she lays down her book with affected indifference, or momentary shame. “It is only Cecilia, or Camilla, or Belinda”; or, in short, only some work in which the greatest powers of the mind are displayed, in which the most thorough knowledge of human nature, the happiest delineation of its varieties, the liveliest effusions of wit and humour, are conveyed to the world in the best–chosen language." --Jane Austen, Northanger Abbey, Chapter 5
“Oh! It is only a novel!” replies the young lady, while she lays down her book with affected indifference, or momentary shame. “It is only Cecilia, or Camilla, or Belinda”; or, in short, only some work in which the greatest powers of the mind are displayed, in which the most thorough knowledge of human nature, the happiest delineation of its varieties, the liveliest effusions of wit and humour, are conveyed to the world in the best–chosen language." --Jane Austen, Northanger Abbey, Chapter 5
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Unequal Affections Vignette--The Wedding Day
A vignette featuring the Darcy and Elizabeth of Unequal Affections.
Unequal Affections
Vignette—The Wedding Day
After knocking,
Colonel Fitzwilliam entered the room where Darcy stood before a mirror in his
shirtsleeves, meticulously perfecting the folds of his cravat. “Well, old man?”
he said. “Are you nervous?”
Darcy shook
his head, smiling slightly.
The colonel
laughed. “You always were the coldest fish in the sea.”
Their eyes
met in the mirror. “Cold is not how I feel,” said Darcy simply.
Just then
Mr. Bingley appeared, all eager excitement. “The carriage will be round in half
an hour, Darcy! You’ve just time to drink a cup of coffee and eat something if
you wish.”
“I would not
count on eating a great deal during the wedding breakfast,” advised the other
man.
Darcy
nodded. “I will eat.” His valet approached and helped him into his coat. He
smoothed the lapels, tugged on the sleeves and bottom edge, then walked over to
the writing desk. Although nearly all his things were packed up and ready to be
sent ahead as soon as he left for the church, he had a box sitting out which
contained his correspondence, important papers and a few valuables. Reaching
inside, he produced a small leather jeweller’s box.
“Is that the
ring?” asked Bingley.
He nodded
again, opening it to study its contents for a moment. Fitzwilliam walked over
to stand at his shoulder. “That was Lady Anne’s ring, wasn’t it?”
“Yes.” It
comprised a rare yellow diamond, surrounded by small white diamonds on a golden
band.
“Has she
seen it yet?”
“No.” A
smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. “She never even asked me what sort of
ring I intended to give her. I do not believe she cares.”
“Well, she
will not be disappointed with that.”
Darcy did
not reply, but he had a singularly satisfied look in his eyes as he removed the
ring and slipped it into an inner pocket.
They
proceeded downstairs, where Darcy ate his breakfast with remarkable composure
while his cousin and friend continued to watch him closely, as if expecting him
to give way to nerves at any moment. When word came that the carriage was waiting
he wiped his mouth, stood, checked his appearance in a nearby mirror one last
time, and strode purposely across the floor, out the door and down the steps,
his companions trailing behind.
~%~%~%~%~%~
“What do you
think, Georgiana?” asked Elizabeth of her newest sister, who had been
permitted, along with Jane, to watch her dress. Georgiana blushed at having her
opinion sought, but offered it timidly.
“I think the
flowers would be prettiest if you placed them here.” She moved the spray in
question to a slightly different location.
Elizabeth
studied her reflection. “Yes, I think you are right.”
“It does not
matter what you do, Lizzy,” said Jane. “You are beautiful regardless.”
She looked
at herself, eyes full of wonder and happiness and a new bashfulness. “Do you
think he will feel so?”
“Of course
he will!” exclaimed both ladies at once.
The door
opened to admit Mrs. Bennet, looking resplendent in her own garb. “Well, Lizzy,
let me look at you,” she said, and commenced an inspection, tweaking and tugging
and making little sounds of approval or disapproval as she did. Elizabeth
looked with laughing eyes at the others.
“I suppose
you will do,” was the verdict eventually. “You will never be Jane but you are
far prettier than any other girl in Hertfordshire, and I’m sure Mr. Darcy knows
it.”
“Yes, Mama,
I am sure he does,” she answered, suppressing a laugh. “Even if I cannot be
Jane.”
Mrs. Bennet
nodded her agreement before bustling off to check on her younger daughters. The
three women left behind looked and each other and burst out laughing. “Dear
Mama!” said Elizabeth. “I believe I may actually miss her.”
“Of course
you will miss her,” said Jane. “Just as we will all miss you.”
“Ah, but we
will be returning soon enough,” she twinkled back. “When a certain other expected event takes place.”
Jane smiled
happily at this reference to her wedding.
In a few
more minutes Jane and Georgiana went to put the finishing touches on their own
toilettes, leaving Elizabeth alone for a few minutes. She cast a lingering
glance around her chamber, knowing that when she came back there, it would not
be as the maiden who had slept in that bed and dreamt girlish dreams for so
many years. She would be a married woman, and if she ever slept here again, her
husband would be with her. Smiling a whimsical smile, running a last, caressing
hand over her old dresser, she left the room—and her girlhood—behind forever.
When
Elizabeth came walking softly down the stairs in her bridal array, she found
everyone but Lydia, Kitty and Mrs. Bennet gathered there. Her father looked at
her with suspiciously misty eyes and pressed her hand.
Mr. Darcy
had sent an extra carriage from Netherfield, but even so the first carriage was
slightly cramped as Lydia, Kitty and Mary squeezed into one seat while Mrs.
Bennet and Mrs. Annesley occupied the other one. In the second carriage, Mr.
Bennet, Georgiana and Jane rode with Lizzy.
The
gentlemen were all waiting outside the church when they arrived, making
conversation with Mr. and Mrs. Phillips. Mrs. Bennet’s coach disembarked first,
and everyone made their greetings politely. It was on the other carriage that
all eyes focused. Mr. Bennet climbed out first, and turned to assist Miss
Darcy, who went immediately to her brother’s side. He took her hand and
squeezed it, his eyes still fixed on the carriage door. Next, Miss Jane Bennet
was helped down by her betrothed, and finally, leaning on her father’s hand,
his Elizabeth, all in white, with a veil draped over her bonnet. Their eyes met
across the distance and held.
Colonel
Fitzwilliam tugged at his arm. “Come, Darcy we must go inside,” he whispered.
“You should not be out here at all.”
Darcy shook
him off. “I am hardly superstitious.” He crossed the small distance to her.
Elizabeth
smiled shyly, endearingly at him, and offered him one gloved hand. The other
held a small bouquet of flowers and fragrant herbs. He raised it to his lips,
caressing it lightly. “My love.”
Elizabeth’s
mouth deepened at the corners. “My
love.”
Darcy’s throat
constricted and he looked way momentarily. It had not been enough days since
she first spoke that title for him to have yet grown accustomed to it.
Mr. Bennet’s
presence distracted them. “Shall we go inside?”
There were
not enough people to be worth filling the pews. The entire community had been
invited to the celebratory breakfast afterward, but here in the church it was
only family and the dearest of friends. The Phillipses sat with Mrs. Annesley,
but the others just filled up the front of the sanctuary, Elizabeth’s sisters
grouped behind her, Darcy’s sister and cousin together on his side, while the
maid of honour and best man took the nearest positions. Mr. Bennet gave his
most beloved daughter away to the man who had fairly earned her love, and even
Lydia remained quiet and respectful during the short, solemn ceremony.
Elizabeth hardly even blinked when he slipped the sparkling ring on her finger;
there was no ring at all that mattered compared to the man standing opposite
her.
When they
came out they found that some local children had gathered outside, and there,
too, was Sir William, with John and Maria and all the younger Lucases and even
Charlotte with them, all laughing as they threw flowers and rice over the
married couple.
Elizabeth
had asked if they could walk home from the church, walk home as she had walked
home nearly every Sunday for so much of her life. Mrs. Bennet had thought the
request terribly eccentric, but Mr. Darcy had smiled as he granted it; he was
not sorry for the extra minutes alone with his bride. While the others went on
by carriage they strolled quietly through the sunshine, saying very little but
walking very close, and when some sheltering trees provided sanctuary, who
could blame them if they tarried a while, whispering and kissing, utterly happy
with the world and themselves in it? It was a rosy cheeked Elizabeth and a
bright-eyed Darcy who finally arrived at their wedding breakfast.
It was a
loud, jolly, bustling party. Elizabeth talked with one person after another,
sparkling more brightly than her wedding ring, while Darcy watched her. When
Colonel Fitzwilliam, at long last extracting himself from Lydia’s clutches,
appeared beside him, he spared him only a flickering glance and slight smile.
“It is good
to see you so happy,” said the colonel quietly.
“It is good
to be so happy.”
“I never
imagined it, when we first arrived at Rosings in March.”
Darcy just
shook his head.
“She will be
a lot more fun at Christmas than that lady Edward married.”
Darcy gave a
short bark of laughter. “Where is Georgiana?”
“Bingley and
Miss Bennet have her safe. Even her shyness cannot combat their combined good
will and amiability.”
He nodded.
“You’ll take care of her?”
“Of course I
will. Go and enjoy your wife.”
“My wife,”
he murmured, and set off across the room. The crowds seemed to part almost
miraculously before his tall figure; in only a few moments he had arrived at
her side.
Elizabeth,
flushed from heat and exertion and happiness, took his arm and smiled
brilliantly at him. “You want to go.”
“I don’t
wish to rush you.”
She shook
her head. “I think I have talked to every person I ever knew now. The only
person I have not spoken enough to is you.”
He led her
towards her eldest sister. “We are ready to leave, Jane,” said Lizzy.
“Of course
you are. I will go and tell my parents.” She slipped away.
“Is there
anything else you need?” Darcy asked.
“I don’t
think so.” She gripped his arm more firmly. “I have everything right here.”
The family
goodbyes were meant to be private, but word spread quickly that the bride and
groom were leaving, and by the time the carriage came around the house had
disgorged its every soul onto the front porch and steps, servants included. Mr.
Bennet gripped Darcy’s hand. “I could not have parted with her for anyone less
worthy.”
Darcy
returned his gaze without any of the old arrogance. “Thank you.”
Then it was
up into the shiny new carriage, a lurch and they were moving, Longbourn’s treed
drive, the shops of Meryton and the hills of Hertfordshire, all slipping,
slipping past. She felt her husband’s hand pressing against hers, and his
finger brushing down the side of her cheek. “You will come back again.”
She shook
her head. “It doesn’t matter.” Her eyes moved from the window to his dear face.
“I love it all, but I love you more.” His arm went around her and with a deep
sigh, she settled back against him. “Take me home, Fitzwilliam.”
Burying his
face against her neck he whispered, “As you wish, Mrs. Darcy.”
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Dissuading Bingley
I'm back posting again finally. In honor of the release of Unequal Affections I will be posting some excerpts, and then the follow-up vignette I wrote.
This is the prologue, but it also forms a complete vignette in itself, as it represents what I think the conversation that Bingley and Darcy had about Jane would have been like. I actually wrote this (all but about the last paragraph) long before I ever began Unequal Affections, and it just worked out that it formed a good prologue for it.
Dissuading Bingley
This is the prologue, but it also forms a complete vignette in itself, as it represents what I think the conversation that Bingley and Darcy had about Jane would have been like. I actually wrote this (all but about the last paragraph) long before I ever began Unequal Affections, and it just worked out that it formed a good prologue for it.
Dissuading Bingley
November 1811
“Darcy, if you try to tell me that Miss Bennet is unworthy of me, I’ll—I’ll—!”
Mr. Bingley’s hand clinched. “I’ll do something!”
They were in London, three days after the Netherfield ball. Mr.
Bingley had been surprised to discover that the guests he had left behind on
his country estate had followed him to town, and upon being now told the reason,
he was anything but pleased.
“She is not unworthy of you, but her family is,” Darcy replied
evenly. “And unfortunately, she
cannot be separated from her family.” Bingley was not to know how he felt the
force of that statement himself. “Think, Bingley! It is not only that Mrs.
Bennet’s family connections would diminish the status your family has worked so
hard to attain; beyond that, can you really imagine introducing that woman—those sisters—to your acquaintance with pride? Do you think you can
bear with complacency their vulgarities and intrusiveness, for the rest of your
life? What marriage could survive that? And you may be sure that the very amiableness
of Miss Bennet’s temper will prevent her from ever setting them at a distance.
Not only will you have to bear with them, but the whole of your acquaintance will
have to bear with them too. Consider your friends for a moment—consider your
sisters! You may be willing to mortify your own consequence, but what of
theirs? Miss Bingley is not yet married; you cannot think it will recommend her
to any future husband, that he must take on himself such connections as Mrs.
Bennet and the younger Bennet girls!”
Mr. Bingley had grown a little pale,
and was clearly struggling. “But they are all very good natured—” he protested weakly. “They are not so bad as you
say, I am sure.”
“Yes, they are,” returned his friend
sternly. “You did not observe them as I did, for you saw no one but Miss
Bennet. Mrs. Bennet is a vulgar, shallow, scheming woman who had no compunction
in boasting of your wealth, even before you made an offer. Miss Mary Bennet
lacks sense and taste, and as for the two younger girls—mark my words, Bingley,
one day one of them will disgrace her family by her foolish behavior. They are
spoiled, vain and silly, with no sense of propriety, and hardly even of common
decency. Their mother positively encourages them, while their father has the
sense to know better, yet chooses to mock them rather than make any attempt to
restrain them.”
Bingley quailed under this merciless
description of the Bennet family and turned away in utmost agitation. Darcy saw
him grasp the mantelpiece until his knuckles turned white. The moment his
friend ceased speaking, he burst out, “But I love her, Darcy!”
“I know,” replied Darcy quietly.
“And I daresay you may say I have been
in love before, but never like this!” He began to pace the room. “There’s no
woman in England like her! She’s an angel! I don’t—I don’t think I could ever
be happy without her!”
“You were happy before her.”
“But that was before I knew her—that I
knew such a creature existed.” He paused, and Darcy waited. “No,” he said
finally. “No, you cannot ask it of me.”
Darcy frowned. “But—”
“I’m a man of honor, Darcy!” he cried.
“So are you! Would you have me behave so infamously—to pay her such attentions,
raise such expectations and feelings, and then desert her? You would never
behave so yourself, surely!”
“Do you believe she loves you, then?”
“Yes! Well—” he flushed, “not as much
as I love her, perhaps, but sincerely, I am convinced of it. She does return my
regard.”
“I disagree,” said Darcy coolly.
Bingley turned a shade paler.
“What?”
This task was turning out to be even
more unpleasant than he had anticipated, but he steeled himself to continue
without flinching. “I took the opportunity to observe her carefully on the
night of the ball. Her countenance was ever serene and smiling, indicating a
general complaisance, but no discernible depth of feeling. She received your
attentions with pleasure, it’s true, but no differently than she received any
other young man’s attentions.” He waited a moment while this information sank
into his unhappy friend’s mind. “She likes you, Bingley, but I do not think she
loves you. I acquit her of scheming—that is her mother’s part—but if you
proposed she would certainly accept you; how could she do otherwise, in her
situation? You will give her no other choice. Family duty, prudence, will all
compel her to accept you regardless of her feelings. If you do not propose, you
will certainly disappoint Mrs. Bennet’s hopes, but not necessarily Miss
Bennet’s. She will not be heartbroken. In fact, she may even be slightly
relieved.”
During this whole speech Bingley had
sat with his head in his hands. When Darcy finished there was a long silence
before he finally looked up, his face haggard. “I—I was sure she cared about
me,” he whispered.
“I’m sure that she does, as a friend.
I simply do not believe she is in love with you.”
“Do not believe?” He searched his
friend’s face almost desperately. “But are you sure, Darcy?”
“I am not omniscient, if that is what
you are asking. But based upon my own observation, I am completely convinced
within myself that her heart has not been touched.”
That Darcy’s conviction weighed heavily
on the other was clear. He passed a shaky hand through his hair, and unshed
tears shone in his eyes. “There’s no reason she should love me,” he said
huskily. “There is nothing outstanding about me. I’m not especially handsome or
especially clever or especially good. I did think, but…” he jumped up and
walked around the room in a disjointed fashion. Darcy simply waited in silence.
“You are right, you know,” he said at last in a low voice. “I have been trying
to think of any particular look or word—anything that might have indicated a
clear preference on her part; anything that would prove she loves me. But there was none. It was just her general
sweetness, her kindness.” He sighed deeply.
“Charles,” Mr. Darcy spoke gently, “I
know this is painful for you, but you must consider before you truly have gone
too far to draw back. Is it really worth the humiliation of such a family, such
low connections, to acquire a wife who, however sweet and kind, cannot even return
your affection? Can you really rate your own happiness above your obligation to
your sister? Would you even be happy in such a marriage? You love her, but is
just having her enough? Is having her, but not having her heart—giving up so
much, putting up with so much without even an equal return of regard,
sufficient? Could it be sufficient for any man?”
Another long silence, then Charles
said, “No. No, it is not sufficient. I could not be content to love but not be
loved in return. If she had loved me, Darcy…” he sighed brokenly. “If she had
loved me then I would have given anything for her. But I cannot make her love
me, can I?” He looked over at his friend.
“No,” Darcy agreed. “No, you cannot.”
Friday, July 19, 2013
Adventures at Morecastle, Part Five
Part 5: Flowers and
Ruins
The Gardiners were aghast when Mr. Darcy related what
had occurred at the Lorrey’s house. Darcy humbly begged their pardon for not
taking proper care of their niece, and while they assured him that they did not
blame him, he found it difficult to fully believe it. Who would not blame him?
He was almost beside himself. He wanted desperately to
speak to Elizabeth again, to profess his love properly and beg her to marry
him—to offer his affection and name and fortune in some compensation for what
she had suffered. But the very fact of her recent travails kept him silent. How
could he press her, at a time like this—when her bruises had not yet even
faded? Surely it would be ungentlemanly
to importune her with his addresses. And yet it hurt to be around her and
remain silent. While he did not know what answer she would give him, just to
speak his feelings would be a relief, and she deserved to know how ardently he
loved and admired her.
When he and Bingley called the next day, Darcy found
that Elizabeth had been ordered by her aunt to remain resting in her room until
dinner. He was glad she was resting, even as he longed to see her and to
ascertain for himself that she was well. He sat morosely through most of the
visit, making little conversation. Then he looked up to find Jane Bennet’s soft
gaze on him, and a few minutes later, she made some excuse, and came to sit
down near him.
“I am sure my sister would wish me to give you her
greetings,” she said.
“How is she?” He leaned forward in his seat. “Tell me,
truly—you know her better than anyone else, Miss Bennet. How is she
recovering?”
She smiled understandingly. “I am not sure recovering is
a proper word, unless you refer to her very slight injuries. Lizzy declares
that she is perfectly well, and that being confined to her room on a beautiful
day in a seaside town is a punishment she has done nothing to warrant.”
“Of course she would say so, but you must be able to see
beyond that. I cannot imagine her surviving yesterday without some ill
effects.”
“I looked in on her shortly before you arrived and she
was asleep, so I think that it made her rather tired, but her spirits are
excellent. Lizzy…” she hesitated. “You cannot expect Lizzy to react like other
girls might. She is strong and brave, and she can never remain unhappy for
long."
“You really believe her to be well, then?”
“I do.”
He sat back, feeling a little reassured. Although he did
not place the highest trust in Miss Jane Bennet’s perceptiveness, her certainty
was calming. The call ended shortly thereafter. As much as both men would have
preferred to have remained for the day, the Gardiners had other things to do
besides entertain their nieces’ callers.
Miss Bingley appeared to be in a sour mood when they
returned, but Darcy did not stay to hear her complaints. Summoning Winker he
went out again. He went by the Lorrey house to check on its occupants, and,
having discovered the address of the local magistrate, called to give his
evidence and discuss having the brutish Joseph fobbed off on some other poor
continent. After that he went into the more fashionable shopping district where
he acquired a shameless pile of bribes—trinkets and sweets for the children, French
bon-bons for the ladies, and high quality cigars for Mr. Gardiner (who smoked
them furtively in the garden when his wife was distracted). For Elizabeth he
purchased the most luscious arrangement of spring blooms he could find, and had
them delivered with a card bearing his
initials. He did not trust himself to write more. Passing a jeweler’s shop, he
went in and could not help choosing one or two pretty things he thought would
look well on her, while not knowing if she would ever be willing to receive
them from him. Any fashionable young woman of the ton would regard such gifts as suitable homage, but Elizabeth would
see a greater significance in them and, he knew, would not accept them unless
she was willing to accept him too.
Thinking fondly of his sister, he bought a pearl
hairclip for her, and asked that it be sent to her house in London. In the next
shop over he found some pretty little boxes whose lids had been painted with
scenes of the Morecastle beach, and, without noticeable hesitation, chose
three, thinking that Elizabeth could not refuse to take one if the other ladies
did too. Belatedly, and with reluctance, he returned for a fourth, knowing that
it would be simply too rude to exclude Miss Bingley. While her recent actions
had not left him feeling charitable towards her, she was a friend of some
years, and had been a very gracious hostess to him last fall. He could not
slight her so openly.
This orgy of spending having somewhat relieved his
feelings, he climbed back into his laden carriage, and directed them to drive
towards the ocean. There, he spent some time walking along the seawall,
watching the waves crash and the seagulls circle overhead.
~%~
Back in her rented bedchamber, Elizabeth woke up. She
lay on her side for a few moments, letting her eyes adjust. It was brighter
than when she fell asleep, even with the curtains drawn. Checking the watch on
her nightstand, she found that she had been asleep for quite three hours. It
seemed Aunt Gardiner had been right when she said she needed rest.
As her eyes moved around the room they came to rest on a
large vase overflowing with flowers; someone
had placed it on the dressing table. They had not been there before. She sat
up, and approached curiously.
It was truly a magnificent arrangement, and all the
blossoms seasonal, rather than from a hot house. There were lilies of the
valley, pale and regal and spikey; some tall, white narcissi, with their
yellow, cup-like centers; hyacinths heavy with crowding blossoms, deep purple
pansies, and forget-me-nots like tiny blue stars. With a rapidly beating heart
she touched the pansies and forget-me-nots. They were well-known symbols of
fidelity and love—as was the ivy that trailed down the side. Something stiff
brushed her fingers—it was a heavy, cream-colored card with her name on one
side, and the initials F.D. on the other, all written in a firm, precise hand.
She remembered now that Lady Catherine had once informed
them that her youngest nephew had been named after his mother’s family, the
Fitzwilliams. Fitzwilliam Darcy, she
thought, tracing the letters. The name was as elegant and aristocratic as he
was.
She had received flowers before, small bouquets from
local boys after a dance. There had not been many, but enough that she did not
feel it outside her experience. No man, however, had ever sent her anything like
this, lush and vibrant and entirely extravagant. She knew he must still be
suffering guilt over the events of the previous day, but it could not be only
her fancy that told her he meant more by it. His behavior over the last few
days had been so particular as to raise the hopes of any woman. In fact, she
verily believed, as she fingered one velvety petal, that she had the power, if
she chose, to bring on a proposal of marriage.
Throwing open the drapes, Elizabeth sat down at the
dressing table and scrutinized her countenance in the mirror. It was now five
days since the curricle accident, and the bruise on her right cheek was fading
into splotches. To her eyes it did not look attractive, but then, Mr. Darcy had
never found her beauty arresting. She could only accept his word when he had
said he still found her appearance charming. Charming, she thought. Not
handsome, charming. Brushing her hair out, Elizabeth pulled it up with a
ribbon and wondered if that fashion could be considered charming.
~%~
“I say, Darcy,”
began Bingley almost as soon as reentered the inn, “Miss Bennet and I were
speaking today, and we would still like to visit those ruins we set out to see
on Wednesday.”
“No more
curricles, Bingley,” said Darcy wearily.
“No, no, of
course not! With my sister here it would not be convenient anyway. We thought
perhaps we could take the barouche, if you don’t mind. Surely it would seat
five.”
“Are the
Gardiners still set against going?”
“We asked them,
of course, but Mrs. Gardiner said it really was impossible at this time. Mr.
Gardiner does not wish to be parted from his family when a separation is
expected.”
Darcy thought
about that a moment. “They really are terrible chaperones.”
Bingley
laughed. “I know, but that’s convenient for us, isn’t it?”
Darcy agreed
without thinking, and then colored when Bingley laughed even harder. “Come
now,” persuaded his friend, “you need not pretend. You are as set on Miss
Elizabeth as I am on her sister.”
“Yes,” he admitted.
“That is excellent! How long have you felt this way?”
“For far longer than I have been willing to acknowledge
it. And when we met in Kent, my feelings increased all the more, but she left
before I could act.”
“Did you know she was here?”
“No, not with any certainty. I knew she was going with
her uncle to the coast, but that was all.”
“Then it was the most marvelous of coincidences, for
both of us.”
Darcy smiled wryly. “Except that you have not managed to upset your
Miss Bennet in a carriage, or to take her somewhere she might be assaulted by
ruffians. She has emerged unscathed from your courtship so far, while Elizabeth
has suffered nothing but disaster from practically the first moment we met them
on the beach.”
“Oh, certainly she not regard it that way! Why, if you
ask me, Darcy, Miss Elizabeth likes your company much better now than she did
when we were in Hertfordshire.”
He frowned. “Was it apparent to you, then, that she
didn’t like me?”
“I wouldn’t go so far as to say that. She seemed
inclined to be offended by you.”
“Inclined to be offended,” he muttered. And he had been
inclined to be offensive.
Bingley went on, elaborating on the details of what he
and Jane had discussed, and Darcy had little to do but agree. They would go the
following day, provided Miss Elizabeth felt well enough. There had been some
tentative talk of dining together that evening as well, but the Gardiners had
felt that a quiet evening was desirable before an all-day outing, especially
for Elizabeth. So Darcy and Bingley, Miss Bingley and the two Miss Bennets
would all go together in one carriage tomorrow, with yet another picnic lunch
stowed away. They would explore the ruins, eat, and return in a leisurely
fashion when everyone was ready. "What could go wrong?"
"What could go wrong?" he repeated. "Do
you remember our first trip out
there?"
Mr. Bingley laughed. "Very well indeed. But we
shall be very well prepared in case of rain—not that I think it shall rain—and
for the rest, you cannot possibly think it will repeat."
"I think it all too likely that some other horrible
accident shall befall us."
"Nonsense! You mustn't let a couple of mischances
spoil your humor. All will be well, you'll see. It shall be the most delightful
day possible!"
~%~
Elizabeth
certainly looked delightful, when they finally saw each other the next morning.
She was wearing a hat he hadn't seen before, of blonde straw, with a wine
colored ribbon that somehow made her eyes more vibrant and her skin more
delicate. He found himself staring with fascination at where it fell, over the
dark tendrils at her ear and the line of her jaw, down her neck.
Beneath the
hat, Elizabeth wondered at Mr. Darcy's mien. He looked so solemn; she wanted to
make him laugh, or smile at the least. She hoped the events of the last few
days had not irrevocably convinced him of her unsuitability; after all, what
kind of lady hit men over their heads with pokers? Their eyes and met and she
smiled shyly at him; to her relief, his countenance softened noticeably, and he
came to her side. "Miss Elizabeth."
She liked the
way he said her name; it seemed not so ordinary as she often thought it.
"I hope you are well, sir."
"I am, but
I have been very concerned about you." He looked at her penetratingly.
"Did you receive adequate rest yesterday?"
"Indeed I
did! I slept for so long I felt positively indolent and spoiled when I finally
rose. And ..." she paused, growing more self-conscious. "I must thank
you for the flowers. They are"—she searched for the right
word—"exquisite."
"Then they
do you justice," said Darcy, and she felt suddenly breathless.
"All
ready, now?" Mr. Bingley was as smiling and cheerful as ever, with Jane
smiling sweetly on his arm.
They all clambered into the carriage and set off. The
barouche was commodious enough to admit all three ladies across the forward seat.
Somehow Miss Bingley ended up uncomfortably situated in the middle, but it
wasn't so bad; she was almost amiable to Jane and nearly polite to Elizabeth. Across
from them, Mr. Bingley was in high spirits, and even Darcy, though as composed
as ever, smiled more than usual. Seated directly opposite him, Elizabeth felt
an irresistible urge to try her power. He was not always sedate—she had seen
him angered, seen him passionate, seen him act and labor and even fight a man
for her sake. He was too calm now; she wanted to disturb him. And yes, though
she hardly could admit it to herself, she wanted to allure him.
"I trust your journey along this road will be more
pleasant than your last, Miss Elizabeth," said Mr. Bingley. The carriage
shook violently as they jostled over dried mud and ruts.
"I do not know that the last was so very bad,"
she answered, and cut her eyes at Darcy. He had been about to speak, but paused,
his own eyes widening. Suppressing a satisfied laugh, she turned back to
Bingley and continued talking, but every few sentences she would cast Darcy another
furtive, provocative look, sometimes very bold, sometimes through her lashes.
He did not answer—did not speak at all—but sat in his place, legs elegantly
crossed, one arm resting along the open edge of the carriage, his gaze fixed
with focused steadiness on her face. This was something—to flirt with only her
eyes, to converse with perfect sobriety with one man, while enticing another in
glances. The drive took over an hour, and only when the inevitable silence fell
did she venture a longer, more proper survey. The only signs of her success
were his silent attention and a certain rigidity in his seemingly relaxed
posture, but she knew all at once that she had done something—something real,
something she could not take back.
The Bleydon ruins represented the remains of a fifteenth
century castle keep, surrounded by a few peripheral structures such as a chapel
and a stone-worker’s cottage. It was all very fallen down and largely
over-grown with ivy, featuring primarily a single romantic-looking tower and
some picturesque arches. Currently, carpets of bluebells and columbines,
foxgloves and celandines filled every cool corner and sunny patch. The ladies
could not help exclaiming over the prettiness of it as the carriage drew up.
When Elizabeth exited, Darcy was there to hand her down.
His fingers gripped hers tightly, but Miss Bingley was still waiting for
assistance behind her. (Bingley had helped Jane out on his side and then
promptly forgotten anyone else.) After giving her a long look, he turned back
and did his duty, for which he was rewarded by Miss Bingley taking his arm.
"Why, what a charming spot," she said. Darcy turned to Elizabeth,
clearly wishing her to have the other arm.
She didn't mean to be contrary or coquettish, but late
embarrassment swamped her and she could not interpret the expression in his
eyes. Had she disgraced herself again by her brazenness? Her uncertainty, his
proximity—it was all quite more than she could handle in the bright sunshine
with Miss Bingley looking on. Declining his arm, she walked rather primly
beside them, avoiding his direct gaze.
Darcy was exasperated. All his feelings of ardor and
tenderness had been aroused to a fever pitch by Elizabeth's unmistakable looks,
and he had been ready to drag her to a secluded spot at the first opportunity.
But now he was stuck with Miss Bingley on his arm and Elizabeth, in bewildering
reversal, would neither touch him nor look at him. Bingley, blast him, was off
wandering around with his Miss
Bennet, blissful and oblivious, while he was left with his sister, and the most teasing woman on the face of the earth!
"Mr. Darcy," said Miss Bingley, as they
wondered slowly amid the ruins, "I wonder if you can tell me the name of
this lovely flower here. Your knowledge of botany is so extensive!"
He gave it a cursory glance, and his lips twitched.
"I believe, madam, that that is Honesty."
"Well of course it is! I need not lie to compliment
you!" She caressed his forearm and smiled intimately.
"He means the flower," said Elizabeth in her
ear, and she jumped.
"I beg your pardon?"
"The flower. It is called Honesty."
Miss Bingley's bewildered gaze went from her amused eyes
to the purple clusters to Mr. Darcy, who seemed to be looking anywhere but at
them. "You are joking me."
"No," said Darcy, staring at something in the
region of his toes, "Miss Bennet is correct."
"Well I never heard of a flower called Honesty. It
is a most peculiar name for a plant." Her cheeks were flushed, but she
held her head up.
"I believe it is not so common in the north as it
is here," conceded Elizabeth. "Oh, look!"
The group all directed their attention through the next
archway, where Mr. Bingley could be seen solemnly studying some pattern in the
stones over the arch itself, while Jane read from a guidebook in her soft
voice.
“Jane is addicted
to guidebooks,” Elizabeth said. “Any time we travel anywhere at all she buys at
least three, and must read aloud the entries for every old building or
interesting field we pass.”
Darcy remembered that he had seen her with one at the
menagerie, and smiled. His quest for Elizabeth’s affections was necessarily
bringing him into the company of her sister, and he found he liked Jane Bennet
very well. She became more interesting on closer acquaintance. "She will
undoubtedly do wonders for my friend's education. I do not believe I have ever seen
him evince an interest in archaeology before."
"Oh, Charles won't remember one thing in ten later
on," said Miss Bingley crossly.
"Perhaps not, but even that one may represent an
improvement."
Miss Bingley took stock of his complacent expression and
attempted to modify her attitude accordingly. "Dear Jane will be good for
him, I'm sure. Shall we join them?"
Join them they did, and the group strolled about for a
few minutes, weaving between shadow and sun, breathing honeyed air and touching
ancient stones with fingers curious or careless by turn. Elizabeth wondered off
on her own eventually, and Darcy was not long in excusing himself from Miss
Bingley's side. After a short hunt he found Elizabeth standing in a tiny,
crumbling chapel, staring at the engraved cross over the alter.
"You need your sister's guidebook." His voice
echoed a little.
She started and turned. "It does not require a
guidebook to explain the purpose of this place, or the meaning of that symbol."
"No," he agreed. "They are known to all
Christians."
She turned back without answering, and he moved to stand
next to her. "You're determined to drive me mad, aren't you?" he said
conversationally.
"Mad?" She seemed startled. "You cannot
think so. I have no such ambition."
An eloquently raised eyebrow was her only answer. She
blushed vividly then, torn between mortification and gratification, and cast
about for a change of subject. "Please tell me... that man—Joseph. Has
it—"
"He has been remanded to prison to await trial."
"So soon?"
He nodded. "The magistrate saw him yesterday, after
I gave him my testimony, and also my support for extradition over hanging. It
will not be long—he will see a judge and jury within a day or two."
"Oh." They shared a sober silence. "It's
disconcerting to think how suddenly a man's life can change forever."
"Yes, and even faster. Men have died with more
speed."
Something about his tone caught her attention.
"Your father. How did—forgive me, I should not ask."
Darcy smiled wryly at her perceptiveness. "He was
thrown from his horse, riding out to see his tenants one day. They determined
later that the beast had been stung by a hornet that got caught in the saddle
blanket. One day I was in London, with no greater concern than which balls I should
attend, and the next I was the master of all Pemberley, and guardian to my
sister."
"I'm so sorry." The sentiment came simply and
naturally. "I had not thought before, what a heavy thing it might be, to
be a man in your position. And I know your father was a very good man—my aunt
has often spoken of it, since we met you again."
"He was everything kind and amiable," said
Darcy. "I miss him often."
Elizabeth thought of her father, how dear he was to her,
and how much she would miss him when he, too, was gone.
"I often wonder," began Darcy again, after a
minute or so of silence, "how it would have been for Georgiana if my
mother was still alive. My sister is... well, she has not your liveliness. Not
that I would wish her to be like you, of course, but I fear she may have
suffered for—" he paused at her expression. "No, no, I meant no
insult!"
She raised an eyebrow.
"Of course I would not wish my sister to be like
you! She's... my sister, and you're... not." He gestured futilely.
It was so hard not to laugh. "It's quite all right,
Mr. Darcy. You need not explain." He began to look relieved, and she tried
to keep a straight face while playing with her gloves. "I am well
acquainted with your opinions on my inferiority—I lack true accomplishment, I
am merely tolerable—"
“Enough!” he cried, recognizing the half-concealed smirk
at last. “Must you insist on mentioning that remark again and again? What is it
that you wish? For me to admit that you are the most lovely woman I have ever
known?”
Elizabeth gaped and stammered. “Of course not! I—I—”
“Well, you are, Miss Bennet.” He stepped towards her.
“Although I may have been too blind to perceive it the first night I saw you, I
began to admire you almost immediately afterwards, and since then I have come
to think your features the most pleasing ones I have ever seen on a woman’s
face!” He stood over her, clasping his hands determinedly behind his back,
staring at her with those intense, dark eyes. “If I have been overly silent in
your presence in the past, Elizabeth, it is because I have been too busy contemplating
the expression in your eyes or the shape of your lips. If I have appeared cold
or curt in my manner it was because I was restraining an ardent desire to kiss
you. Your beauty has been a constant presence in my thoughts for months now.”
He seemed to lean a little closer, as if about to close the space between them.
“Now have I said enough, or do you require further reassurance?”
Elizabeth’s face was burningly hot by now, her eyes
wide. Speechlessly, she shook her head.
“Good.” He smiled slightly, ran his eyes lingeringly
over her, and turned away. She looked around faintly for a place to sit.
~%~
The moment he began to move away from her, Darcy began
to fear that he had been too forward, and that she would now avoid him like the
plague. She had driven him to it, stubborn and impertinent woman that she was;
it was intolerable that she should believe herself anything less than wholly
attractive and enticing to him. But he was unhappily aware that in declaring
himself so frankly he may have pushed her too far and lost the rapport they had
established in the last few days.
As he emerged through the doorway, the figure of Miss
Bingley appeared briefly through the trees opposite. Grimacing, he made good
his escape, returning to where Bingley was still listening dutifully as Jane
read something about Saxons and Normans—although Darcy noted wryly that his
gaze, glazed and mooncalf-like, seemed fixed solely on the curls which caressed
the narrator's ear. Miss Bingley reappeared shortly, but as the minutes went by
without Elizabeth he began to wonder anxiously if he should have left her, and
if he should go back. When she finally walked back through the arch, he
breathed an audible sigh of relief and moved towards her without even realizing
what he did. For a moment it seemed that she wasn't going to meet his eye, but
then she did, and smiled almost shyly at him. Relief washed through him.
All this time the footmen had been busy arranging
blankets and plates and food, and now John appeared to politely indicate that
their repast was all prepared. He offered Elizabeth his arm, and saw with
pleasure how readily she took it. Together they climbed the hill.
It was a delightful spot, under a spreading tree and
just elevated enough to afford an excellent view of the ruins. The cold meats
and cheeses, the pastries, the delicate strawberries and sweet oranges that
left their fingers sticky were all well consumed. Even Miss Bingley seemed to
mellow beneath her broad-brimmed hat, and much wit and laughter flowed.
"We ought to play a game of some sort," said
Bingley lazily, as the plates were removed. "For I'm sure I shan't be
ready for more walking for another half-hour at least."
"I know,"
said Caroline unexpectedly. "Let's all play a game of Consequences."
"Consequences?
I haven't played Consequences in years."
"All the
more reason to do it now! What better occupation at a picnic? Here, I shall
direct. I even have an old letter in my reticule that shall do to write
on!" She searched it for a moment, and produced not only a sheet of paper,
half written on one side, but a pencil. "What order shall we go in?"
"I'll go
first," volunteered Jane. Elizabeth, for her part, had little interest in
what she viewed as a rather silly game, and she could guess from the look on
Darcy's face that he felt the same, but of course neither of them would be so
rude as to refuse.
"Excellent.
Anyone else?" She looked around invitingly, and when no one responded
immediately declared, "I shall follow dear Jane, and Mr. Darcy, you must
go next, and then Miss Elizabeth, and finally you, Charles. Do you all recall
what it is that you must write?"
Darcy cleared
his throat. "You may have to refresh my memory as to the rules, Miss Bingley."
"It is
very simple. Each of you write down something that I tell you at the top of the
sheet, and then fold it over so that the next person after you cannot see it.
There will be eleven entries in all. Then when we are all finished, I shall open
the paper and read what you wrote like a story. The results are always most
amusing, I promise you."
"We shall
endeavor to amuse then," said Elizabeth.
Miss Bingley
handed over the paper and pencil to Jane. "You must write down an
adjective--that is a word that describes--for a man."
Jane looked at
the paper, sighed a dreamy little sigh, and wrote down gentlemanly.
"Now fold
it over," instructed Caroline, "and hand it to me. I am to write a
man's name." She looked deliberately at Darcy and wrote down William. Folding it briskly, she handed
it to him with a satisfied smile. "Mr. Darcy."
He took it
gingerly. "What am I to write?"
"An
adjective to describe a woman." She tried to look at him significantly,
but his gaze had moved to Elizabeth beside him. Without hesitation he wrote teasing, and passed it to Lizzy. Their
eyes met as their fingers brushed together.
"Miss
Elizabeth, you must chose a woman's name," said Miss Bingley.
Elizabeth
thought about that for a moment. Then, suddenly remembering what Darcy had
called her, she put down Hippolyta,
with a mischievous smile.
"And now
you, Charles. You may write down the place where they met."
Bingley looked
longingly at Jane's beautiful face. At a
country ball, he scrawled.
"It is
your turn again, Jane." She waited impatiently while Bingley slowly gave
Jane the paper, getting lost in her eyes several times in the process.
"Say what the man wore."
A blue coat, printed
Jane, with another sigh, and gave the paper back to Miss Bingley.
"I will
write what the woman wore." With some deliberation she wrote, an aurora silk gown trimmed with Brussels
lace, and a saffron turban. It was what she had worn the last evening Darcy
dined at their house in town. "And now, Mr. Darcy, you must tell us what
the man said to the woman when he met her."
He took the
paper without comment (and without returning her look again). They were getting
down nearer the end of the sheet now, and he, using his knee as a writing
surface, took his time. He looked rather grave as he folded it and handed it to
Elizabeth again.
"Miss
Elizabeth!" Miss Bingley's voice came out a bit sharp. "It's your
turn to write what the woman said to the man."
Elizabeth's
eyes remained locked with Darcy's for just
a moment before she looked down. She held the paper in her open hand, a bit
awkwardly, close to her face so that she could not be seen, and wrote against
her palm. For some reason, there was tension in the sunny air.
Bingley was
very enthusiastic in his writing—"You must say what the consequence of
their meeting was, Charles"—and pierced the paper with the pencil three
times before he was through.
"Oh, is it
my turn again?" asked Jane. "Or is that all?"
"There is
one more, but perhaps you'd prefer I took the extra turn." Miss Bingley
reclaimed the paper quickly. "I did chose the game, after all. I,"
she announced, "will answer the question of what the world said." She
wrote with a flourish, and smiled around the circle. "Now, shall we not
open it and see what our story says? I fancy some might find the content most
interesting." She looked significantly at Darcy again, but he missed it
for a third time.
Bingley rubbed
his hands. "I say, I'm quite excited about this now!"
Caroline
unfolded the sheet, now creased in many uneven lines. In a clear,
well-modulated voice she read aloud, "Gentlemanly
William met teasing Hippolyta at a country ball. My, what an odd name
choice, Eliza." Darcy smirked and Elizabeth merely smiled. "William wore a blue coat"—Jane
sighed dreamily again—"and Hippolyta
wore an evening gown in aurora silk trimmed with Brussels lace, and an aurora
turban."
"Somehow I
doubt that," murmured Darcy, only loud enough for Elizabeth to hear.
"He said to her, 'If I had it all to do over
again, I would do it differently.' She said to him, 'I should have looked
harder—I should have seen who you really were.' And the consequence was, they were perfectly, rapturously happy
together all the days of their lives."
The silence
that followed was broken by Miss Bingley. "Do you know," she said,
standing abruptly, "I do believe I'm growing rather warm. And I really should get out of the sun—unlike
some I have a care for my complexion.
If you'll all excuse me, I think I'll wait in the carriage."
"But we haven't even visited the pond yet,"
objected Bingley. "Miss Bennet expressly wanted—"
"I doesn't matter, I don't need to—"
"You may take as long as you please," said
Miss Bingley coldly. "But I would prefer to sit in the carriage. I've had
enough of dirt and insects for one day."
Watching her walk away, Elizabeth felt some pity for
her, but did not know what to do. Her distress was of her own making.
"Perhaps we ought to visit the pond now,"
suggested Darcy.
They all agreed, and the gentlemen helped the ladies to
their feet. Past the main ruins was a small path running between some trees
that took them down to the pond. It was very pretty, with trees that overhung
the bank, and thick rushes along one end where the water flowed out into
healthy stream, heading towards the sea. A small dock stood in the water a
little way from them, though there were no boats in sight.
The ladies made some pleased exclamations, and their
swains obligingly followed them as they wandered about the banks, looking at
the water and waterfowl, admiring the trees, and generally enjoying the unique
blessings which nature provides.
Elizabeth paused by the dock. "I wonder if anyone
ever uses this."
"Perhaps not any more, but once, yes. I'll bet
there's some excellent fishing to be had here."
"Do you think so?" They walked out and peered
into the water.
"Look," said Darcy, "in the shadows
there—a fine, large perch."
"Oh yes, I see," she said after a moment.
"There are probably pike in a pond like this too,
and perhaps the odd trout."
For a few minutes they walked around the edge of the
dock, pointing out fish and turtles and one exceptionally fat frog who swam by.
The quiet of the place was seeping into them, and the warmth of the sun and the
glare off the water put them into almost a haze. Eventually they found
themselves at the end of the planks, standing not more than three feet apart,
just looking at each other. They had stood together on a dock just the week
before, but it had not been at all like this.
"Miss Bennet," said Darcy, slowly.
"Elizabeth..."
"Hi, Darcy!" Bingley called from the bank.
"Come here and take a look at this, will you?" He and Jane were
standing a little away, looking towards the sun.
The cheeks of both those standing on the dock colored,
and Elizabeth looked away to compose herself. Darcy muttered an apology and
walked off.
"Well, what is it, Bingley?" he asked crossly
when he reached them.
He gestured towards some pale, veined flowers growing in
the grass. "Darcy, didn't you once tell me that these are called
cuckooflowers? I remember it because of the odd name."
Darcy looked at him incredulously. "And this is why
you called me over?"
"Miss Bennet wants to know," said Bingley, as
if that was all the explanation required.
"I always thought they were called Lady's
Smock," added Jane.
"It's called by both names, as far as I know,"
he said, testy in his frustration. "Really, Bingley, what is this such
mania for wildflowers, and why am I the person to ask? If you and your sister
are so fascinated by the names of common field flowers, you ought to buy a
book—or hire a gardener to travel with you! But as for me I..."
At this moment, a gallinaceous racket behind him drew
the attention of all the party to events taking place on the little dock.
While waiting for Darcy to return, Elizabeth had found
herself accosted by a trio of belligerent geese, who, having often been fed by
visitors who came to the ruins, had grown very bold. Their heads came as high
as her waist, and though she was at first amused at their approach, she quickly
became alarmed as they crowded around her, honking loudly. One of them snatched
at her reticule and she pulled it back, looking futilely for something to
defend herself with. Another nipped at her skirt, and she gave it a swift kick,
but stumbled back a step as she did so. A third nip sent her jumping back the
other way—but unfortunately, there was no dock left. Her foot landed more than
halfway on air, she teetered, tried to regain her balance and finally, before
Darcy's horrified gaze, tumbled ungracefully into the water with an impressive
splash.
"Elizabeth!" cried Darcy, and lunged towards
the edge of the pond.
"Mr. Darcy, do not!" cried Jane. "I do
not believe it is very..." her voice faltered as he practically threw
himself into the water, "deep."
Indeed it was not deep. Elizabeth came up sputtering a
moment later, hat limp and hair in her eyes. She floundered for just a bit
before finding her feet. She stood up just as Darcy reached her, and found the
water did not reach above her waist.
"Elizabeth!" he gasped, seizing her by the
arms. "Are you hurt?" Her only reply was a hiccup, and a futile shove
at the water and hair in her eyes. "Oh, my love..." murmured Darcy,
and, without further ceremony, picked her up in his arms.
Such a gesture was not strictly necessary, as Lizzy was
unharmed and quite capable of walking out, but she could not find it in herself
to object. Instead she clung to him as, holding her tightly to his chest, he
began to wade back towards shore. Wading through thigh-high water is never
easy, and her added weight caused his fine boots to sink into the mud, but he
struggled determinedly on, clutching his prize. When they reached the shore he
collapsed on the ground, still holding her.
Elizabeth's hat, which had been so jaunty that morning,
was soaked and drooping now; plus, it had an annoying way of getting between
her face and Darcy's. She tugged at the ribbons and when they would not give
way, pushed it backwards on her head, making an even greater mess of her hair
in the process.
"Forgive me, Elizabeth," Darcy was saying, his
voice full of emotion.
"Why?" His face was so near, his eyes so full
of feeling, and she could feel his heart pounding so clearly, that without even
thinking about it, she wrapped both her arms around his neck.
"I have led you into one disaster after another! I
am a miserable protector!" If possible, he drew her even closer.
"It was the stupid geese," she said. "I
hate geese."
"I hate geese too," he answered, and kissed
her.
~%~
All this was observed by a highly interested Mr. Bingley
and a blushing but also interested Jane Bennet. They would likely have
continued in their observations, except that just then a step was heard on the
path behind them. Their eyes leapt to each other's, both thinking the same
thing.
"Your sister!" hissed Jane, and looked pointedly
at the embracing couple.
"I'll head her off," whispered Bingley back,
and then added, just before he turned, "my darling."
That one word was enough to make Jane forget all about
her sister and lapse into a happy daze of her own.
On the grass, Darcy drew his head back slowly.
Elizabeth's head rested against his shoulder, her eyes shut and her cheeks
flushed and damp. She still had a mark where her cheek had been cut, surrounded
by the mottled remains of the bruise, and her hair was in sodden disarray, but
he cared not. "I am surely the most incompetent lover who ever
lived," he said, "but I do
love you. You must see that."
Her eyes opened, and sparkled. "I got your coat wet,
I'm afraid."
"I don't care about my coat! Elizabeth, I'm trying
to ask you to marry me."
That made her grow serious again. "You need not,
just because I fell into a pond."
"I don't care about the pond either! Or at least, I
care, but that's not why I'm asking." He drew back a little further, just
enough that they could really look at each other. "I came to Morecastle on
a foolish, improbable whim, hoping to somehow find you—and I did. I've bungled
everything since then—I bungled everything before—but it was always—"
"You didn't bungle everything." She removed
one hand from the back of his neck and placed it against his cheek. It was
still gloved, and the glove was wet, but he did not mind. "On the
contrary, you have done what I would never have believed possible." He
held his breath, waiting. "In scarcely more than a week, you have effected
so material a change in my feelings towards you, that I think... I am almost
certain... that is, I believe that
I..." She paused an infinitesimal moment, then spoke the word, even as it
rose, formed and clear and adorned with truth, in her mind. "...love you."
Darcy inhaled sharply. "I love you," she repeated, and smiled
tremulously bright.
For one long instant they looked into the other's eyes,
reading each what they most hoped to see, then Darcy once again lowered his head
and sealed her lips with his own.
~%~
"For the last time, Charles, I wish you to stand
aside and let me pass!" Miss Bingley had reached a high point of
exasperation.
"I can't," he repeated doggedly.
"I don't understand why not! Has the pond dried up
all of a sudden? Or is there something shocking about the color of its water,
or the ripple of its waves?"
"No, I just think you would prefer to wait in the
carriage, as you said."
"It's those Bennet girls, isn't it? They sent you
to turn me back! Why? What do they hope to accomplish?" She strained to
look past his shoulder.
"Of course it's not them, but I just think,
Caroline—" his thought was unfinished as she seized a small opening and
darted past him. "No, wait, I really must insist—"
He had just caught up with her and placed a restraining
hand on her arm when she burst out of the path into the clearing by the pond.
Her gaze, like a homing pigeon returning to roost, lit immediately on the
object of its greatest interest, and the clearing echoed, ever so briefly, with
a clear, high-pitched shriek.
~%~
Miss Bingley did not remain hysterical for long, but it
was sufficient to bring the lovers to themselves. Elizabeth blushed furiously
but Darcy continued to hold her protectively, until Jane stepped up and
delicately reminded them both that Lizzy was soaked and Darcy not much better.
Bingley succeeded in sending his shocked sister back to the carriage to request
blankets and whatever else might be available to warm and dry them, then
volunteered his own coat to wrap the lady. Since Lizzy had become belatedly
aware of how immodest a wet gown actually is, she was very grateful to accept
it, and to walk with Jane to a more private spot.
Still watching her, Darcy climbed slowly to his feet.
Bingley clapped him on the shoulder. "My warmest congratulations!"
"Thank you."
"I'll bet you never thought you would owe your
happiness to a pair of geese, eh?"
Darcy's gaze turned dark as he peered around the pond.
"Those birds ought to be shot."
"I daresay they shall be, one of these days."
"We shall have no geese at Pemberley."
"Of course not."
"Except on the dinner table."
Bingley just grinned. Coming a little more to himself,
Darcy glanced ruefully down at his wet leathers and muddied boots. "My man
is likely to quit my service when he sees me. He only this morning informed me
that the boots I wore last Friday will never be the same again, despite all his
efforts. I thought he was going to cry."
"Tell him he's to have a new mistress, and I am
sure he shall forgive you."
That made Darcy smile again, his whole countenance
lightening as he glanced where he ladies had gone. "And you, my friend?
When do you intend to secure your happiness?"
"Soon. That is, if certain of my companions can
cease drawing attention to themselves."
Rather than taking offense Darcy only laughed and then
trudged off, boots squishing, to where Miss Bingley could be seen leading John,
his arms piled high with blankets and carriage rugs. After he had done his best
to clean himself up, and Miss Bennet and Elizabeth had done the same to her,
they all came back together before returning to the carriage. Although drier
than she had been, Elizabeth was still wrapped in a large blanket, for warmth
and modesty. They had let down her hair, which was beginning to curl wildly as
it dried. She looked, in truth, so very desirable, than he could not forbear to
take one of the hands that peeked out of her wrappings, and press it to his
lips. She blushed happily and grinned at him.
"It would be better for my peace of mind if you
were less pleasing than you are, but I cannot regret it," he said.
"Oh! You shall make a fine husband, if you will but
continue with comments like that!" she laughed.
"Then I am assured of success." He kissed her
hand again.
On the ride home no one objected to the two damp
travelers sharing a seat, and if their hands sometimes found each other beneath
the blankets, not even Miss Bingley commented on it. Elizabeth was deeply happy
and almost as bewildered, unable to care how she looked, just but electrifyingly
conscious of the man beside her.
She was not so absorbed in herself that she did not
notice the eager glances Mr. Bingley threw her sister. As these glances were
made over the crown of his sister's hat they were not very effective, but she
smiled to herself, knowing it would not be long before Jane joined her in her
new status.
When they at last arrived at home it was growing late,
and the dinner hour was nearly upon them. There were exclamations from Mrs.
Gardiner on seeing how wet and bedraggled Elizabeth was, and a great movement
to get her upstairs without delay, but somehow she managed a moment nearly
alone with him, in the hall, still wrapped in her blanket.
"I will write to your father immediately,"
whispered Darcy. "In the meantime, may I speak to your uncle?"
She nodded. "You will return for dinner?"
"If your aunt will still receive me."
"Of course she will."
"If she objects, I have bribes."
"Bribes?" She raised her eyebrows, but he
simply smiled a faint, mysterious smile. "You continue to surprise me, Mr.
Darcy."
"Well, thank heaven for that, anyway."
They contemplated each other a moment longer,
constrained by the company around them from further action, then Elizabeth was
hustled away by her aunt. All the way up the stairs she kept looking over her
shoulder, and her last glimpse of Darcy was him standing with damp and tousled
hair, a dark line of wet still marking his trousers above the knee, several
water marks on his coat, and his eyes fixed with certainty on herself. He was,
she thought, the most beautiful man in the world.
Yes, reflected Elizabeth before her mirror as the maid combed her
tangles out, Mr. Darcy was the first man, the only man in all the world, who
she could ever be prevailed upon—who she wished and fervently desired—to marry.
"Jane," she said aloud to her sister, making her own toilette across
the room, "is there any felicity in the world to being in love? How glad I
am that we came here! How glad I am that we did not go to the Lakes!"
The
End
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